Two more weeks! "I can do it, I can do it" is what I keep telling myself these days. Honestly, the kids are driving me crazy, seems like every summer right about now. It's not so much having extra kids I watch as it is my own kids. Kade and Kason clash quite a bit on a daily basis but now that we're home all the time it is even more so and sometimes I feel like I'm just separating them or resolving issues. I know that the biggest part of it is this forever long break from school. I don't know who decided that 3 months off of school is a good idea, especially since they don't seem to be doing much during the school year either. Kids need structure, they need to be learning or else they get bored and sooner or later they get into smaller or bigger trouble. Even though the kids are outside a lot every day, they still need structure after such a long time of nothing on the schedule. So, more than anything right now, I am craving getting into our routine of school, homework, church, sports, and so on.
Originally I thought I'd have at least a couple of weeks now without the daycare kids but that didn't happen so I think it is also adding to me losing my sanity. I just can't say to them they can't bring their kids since 3 families don't have anyone lined up until September. I also feel like I need to stick with it until the end since I'm going into an unknown period as far as being called in to sub and getting paid. So, 2 more weeks and then I'll be free. :) Free to have my mornings and early evenings with my kids, to not have to stress about meals every night, it will be beautiful.
Another thing that I am really excited about is that Kade is old enough now to watch Kason and Anika for a little while, if I need to run errands, have an appointment and stuff. It is so freeing when the kids get to this age because it's not easy to always find someone to watch them or juggling it between me and Ehren only. So, despite the negative of kids growing up like the outbursts and hormones acting up (yes, already at 10 years old!) I still love the extra freedom it brings with it and how it allows us to have fun family outings and trips. And the kids don't cry after an hour in the car anymore! :) So many little things you forget. When you're in the middle of it, you don't know any better and just deal with it but once you're passed that it is so hard to think about going back to babies. It also just occurred to me recently that it's not just my kids getting older, it's me too. :) There are a lot of new moms joining our mom's group and as I looked around the last time I realized how different my life is now from theirs when it seems like just yesterday when I was there having toddlers and preschoolers and running after them like crazy whenever we'd be out and about. :) So life changes and it changes faster than I realize. I just hope I am able to hold tight to these moments I have now with our kids, when they still listen and want to listen and cherish them because before I know it they'll be graduating.
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